Getting Real

I'm preparing for the 12WBT and did the "Getting Real" Pre-Season task today. I took the day off sick because of the headaches associated with my LASIK surgery. I have been feeling particularly lazy after my surgery and have bombed at usual jogging efforts. Feeling under the weather and not performing physically has made me turn to comfort foods which has been affecting my mood. This task has come at perfect timing and has encouraged me to focus on my behaviours that have been hindering my fitness and weight goals. 

I have been working out for weeks and not shed more than a kilo. Who takes the responsibility for eating yummy freebies at work, it's not like my colleague force fed me leftover stollen, carrot cake and brownies at work last week right?

My behaviours and actions are shaped by myself. Sounds easy right? No.. This is a huge step because I don't know if I trust my own judgement most of the time. 

I am skeptical in writing this blog. It allows others to judge me, to voice my feelings where it's captured leaving me unable to retract comments/posts where I have failed.  I have to let go with my control because who knows, at the end of the 12 weeks I could remain the same, same fitness, same shape and same attitude  unless I take ownership of my actions and imagine that? Posting my journey online with no change from beginning to end.

It's time to get real and let my inhibitions go. I have to accept responsibility for my actions.

Advice to myself today

1. When you have a headache and can't do a full work-out walk for a few kms and clear your head instead of being lazy on the couch.